Gloomy Sunday

Today there isn't going to be much sunshine, if any at all. Of course we need the rain, but rainy days always bring me down.

I've not been in much of a mood these past couple of days and I really can't put my finger on why. Must be hormones or something.

It could be that once again I'm worrying about what kind of life I can afford for myself if I retire. I've always known that I can't stay here, in Northern Virginia, due to the high cost of living. If I want to continue to stay in this house, I'll have to keep on working. I don't know how much longer I can do that. As I grow older, my body is letting me know, it's getting older too. Arthritis is a big contributor. As long as I can stay close to my home and not have a heavy work load, I'll try to work as long as I can. I had been looking at real estate on the internet in the Southern part of the state. There are several places that might be nice.

I have a dear internet friend who lives on the Eastern Maryland Shore and in conversation suggested we get together. I had completely forgotten about Maryland and the lovely town of Easton has always been a favorite for me. I did some surfing and found several lovely places that are right in my price range so I told my friend that we should get together after the Easter Holiday. She can show me the town, where to shop, etc. which will be a great help.

The thought of selling, buying and moving is exhausting. The thought of establishing new relationships is heartbreaking because I have my wonderful family of friends here. I've lived here for 40 years. This is home to me and to leave it will be traumatic.

This is going to be one tough decision.

God bless you all.