An awful day

The day after my birthday, the company made a company-wide layoff. Approximately 83 people in our location were RIFed (reduction in force); 28 of those were from our project. I don't know if it's good luck or not, but I was not one of those 28.

Our company is ceasing work on our contract due to difference with 'the customer' as well as one other contract within the company ceasing work for similar problems with their customer. Our wind down should take from 3 to 6 weeks. I'll be involved in that process and then I will be assigned to a new unit being formed. I won't be working with my current boss. She is unsure of what she will be doing. I will support a program chief, but at this point exactly what that program will be is still being formed.

Right now, I'm working at top speed to be able to do what I have to do to recall company equipment from those who have been RIFed. It clearly is a 3 person job and of course, I have no help. The suggested timeframes and volumes are not realistic and I'm losing sleep over it. This is a three day weekend and for peace of mind, I'll go in one of those three days. I just don't know which one. I've got to organize my thoughts and see what I have to do around here and then move forward.

I hate unrest. I don't like change. And to quote myself "ARGHHHHHHHH"!!!!!! Knowing myself, I know things will get done, the project will shut down and I'll be instrumental in forming the new unit. They tell me, that's why I was chosen. I was flattered when my new boss told me he had specifically requested me on his team. I've only worked around him since early December when he replaced our interim Field Chief Michael. Michael and I worked very well together and I hope to have that same rapport with the new boss. I don't know if I'll be able to make the Spring trip to Russia due to all of this. I should know this coming next week.

I know I sound all mixed up. I am. There are many things whirling around in my head and I feel I need to do them all - NOW. I did manage to get a little sleep last night so I am better rested than yesterday when the night before I woke at midnight and never went back to sleep.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention my nephew was included in the RIF.

Please pray for me.

God bless you all.